Question:
What is it that you truly need for
yourself,
your Vampirism, as selfish as it may seem to
many, in order to
maintain that much needed
balance? Which do you find the most challenging
in doing so: control or sources?
Greetings to all,
There is a fine balance to be found in ones' own Vampirism, and mine
is
no exception. I have come to find that I have a need of both sources
at
times as well as control of those sources once attained. I have
learned over
the years to adapt myself to my surroundings, but it is not
always an easy
thing to do. I am primarily an Empathic Vampire and have
many emotions to
deal with on a daily basis both a work and not. There are
days when I can
gain a great deal from the people I work with, and then
days when the same
people just hinder me more than help. Their emotions
are on a roller coaster
ride, and I try to find the even keel there, but am
not always successful,
especially when I am found to be the one they turn
to for help themselves.
On the days I am able to find the much needed
energies from within them, I
find myself letting them go so quickly on
emotions that are wasted, or
frustrations that need not take my strength
and energies on.
Control is not my main strength I will be the first to admit, but with
time, as in all things, I am learning how to maintain it as much as
possible.
I do find that there are other ways for me keep my balances such as
the
Elements, and in finding other sources, this too, helps me to keep
better
control. I think by our finding more sources around us, we can then
better
maintain the control that is so very elusive at times.
Moonslight