Question:
What is it that you truly need for
yourself,
your Vampirism, as selfish as it may seem to
many, in order to
maintain that much needed
balance? Which do you find the most
challenging
in doing so: control or sources?
Hmmm. Tricky.
I do have some limited ability to feed through sexual
contact and to
take a little from each person in a crowd (nightclubs are
great for
this). Being a sanguine my primary need is blood. I have, at the
moment, only one regular donor, whose services I share with my
fiance so
owing to the need to be responsible and medically safe,
there is not a huge
amount to go around. A few more sources would not
go astray. In addition to
this the circumstances in which I live at
the moment are very stressful. In
addition to having to live with the
constant trials of vampirism this really
doesn't help. I am in the
process of organizing some major changes in my
life in the form of a
change of address and a new computer so that will be
one of my needs
met. (Oh I am NOT just using this as an excuse to complain)
:)
The most challenging parts, to me then, are keeping my non vampirism
related stress levels down, and control in feeding. With a good
sanguine
feed I used to find it's like pringles crisps. Once you pop
you can't stop.
I have had to do a lot of work on my control.
Ultimately you have to do the
right thing by your donors, if the
arrangement is to work to the benefit of
both parties.
Saladin